Post by addison on Jan 23, 2010 17:10:42 GMT
i feel a seperation coming on.
'CAUSE I KNOW YOU WANNA BE MOVING ON.
'CAUSE I KNOW YOU WANNA BE MOVING ON.
"let's start out by saying i'm probably bi-polar. so joke, it's not a lie. one minute i can be quietly reading a book and then the next i can be laughing like a loon or dancing about in my underwear. this may be the cause of flaws in so many of my relationships. i mean, i can't stay one mood for long, and just the littlest thing can change that. i could be all happy and fine with you and then you can say i have a single hair standing up and i'll be yelling at you for always pointing out my flaws. well, maybe not yelling. i tend not to yell so much as to sinistrely whisper at you. i mentally berate you, as is. i'm very modest and i simply loathe talking about myself. i would have never fit in the slytherin house, for i have no sense of pride and deem myself unworthy of anything good thrown my way. which you would not expect, seeing as my family is rather well-known for our good luck. i'm usually very quiet, never spekaing out of line or yelling at anyone except maybe my brother.
brushing my modesty aside for just one second, i will say that i am dedicated, loyal and faithful to no end. it's a good thing to be, really. but if you're my friend, i won't desert you - ever, unless you ask me too. and then i will not give up the hope that you will see the error of your ways and ask for forgiveness. i do not bear grudges, and i do not usually lie. little white lies like saying your butt doesn't look fat in those pants when it really does does not count as a lie. as a hufflepuff, though, you can actually expect me to be rather witty because we're awesome, and i can pridefully say that i cherish that aspect of my mind. i'm not typically mean or anything, but if you're talking about me or something, i will not hesitate to snap a comment at you. i don't cuss, of course, but intellegence is often insulted. i know random facts that many find pointless but often come in handy, and i've never gotten anything lower than an e on anything during my stay at hogwarts. still, it's not like i spend all day reading my textbooks. i'm rather a fan of romance novels, simply because i'm a hopeless romantic at heart there is nothing sweeter than roses, surprises and the rain. typical girl stuff, i know.
i am also proud to say that i'm quite creative when it comes to poetry. i never let anyone see my poems, of course, because they're rather dark or sappy, but i am constantly thinking of new ones up in my head, or writing down newly found rhymes in my notebook and such. speaking of notebooks, i have maybe a hundred stored in my book case. yes, i am a proud geek. not computer game and such type of geek, but i do write a lot, prefer dark, quiet spaces and i keep every note ever taken on any class or course i've ever taken. that's what my notebooks are filled with. the ones in my bookcase, at least. my poetry books are locked away in a trunk under my bed. but yes, i am a proud geek, teachers pet, nerd, whatever you would like to call it. on a different note, i do have times when i can be reckless, wild and free. they often include the equation lorcan + forced liquor, but still. i do have a wild side, and when sparked i could be just as bad as...as... that muggle miley cyrus! well, maybe not that wild, but you get the point. i could be a party girl if i wanted to, but i don't.
maybe because i'm rather underconfident when it comes to the matters of me? for one, i don't think i'm as pretty as people say. i mean, my face is weirdly shaped, my eyes get too squinty when i laugh, and i have a unnormally sized mouth. i don't think i'm at all interesting or fun to be around, and i'm not even sure why lorcan even liked me. i think this all started when i met lorcan, actually. because he didn't notice me in the beginning, even if we were eleven. on the other hand, i can be quite bossy. people know better than to work with me in a classroom project unless you're up for some hard work. i mean, i'm quite the perfectionist and i'm very well aware that you have a book with directions, but i'd rather tell them to you out loud. i'm a leader, actually, i like taking control. except when it comes to matters of romance - the man is always supposed to lead. i'm very protective over those i love, such as my brothers. you hurt them, and your punishment will be four times as painful, i can assure you. i don't want them to be so unhappy, but at the same time i don't want either of them to have a girlfriend. she might hurt him even worse.
i'm very maternal, i can say that is a fact. my guy friends have that hero disorder thing? well, i have the same thing, but more of a mother disorder thing. i don't save people from falling into the lake, or swat away bees. i'll immedeately bring them a blanket and hot chocolate once they're removed from the lake, or tend to their beestring. in fact, i want to be a healer one day so that i can care for people all i want and not have to worry about it. but i doubt that will happen. people rarely get the careers they want. oh, by the way, i'm rather cynical. i wasn't for the longest time, but people kept letting me down. i'll always remain faithful, but at the same time i'm looisng my faith in the goodness of human kind. but i suppose it's just logic, which is something most people all need. we have those space cadets that think everything will turn out perfect if they do one thing good. i tend to look at both sides, the right and the wrong. it's a good way to be."
and i wish that it would snow tonight.
YOU'D PULL ME IN, AVOID A FIGHT.
YOU'D PULL ME IN, AVOID A FIGHT.
"no matter how cynical and devoted to my books i am, i do have a lot of friends. most people i've probably known forever, because my parents are purebloods - the kind that host the gala's and parties for all the wizarding world. daddy took his puddlemere united name a bit too far sometimes. but if you have an ounce of wizard blood in you, you have known me since we were kids - and that is that. and i have all sorts of friends, you know. wild, crazy ones to party with, quiet ones to study with and the sweet ones that helped me get over last year. i accept anyone, you know."
cause i feel,
A SEPERATION COMING ON.
A SEPERATION COMING ON.
"you know what i seriously HATE? slackers. if you slack off in a relationship or in class and you have no other redeeming qualities, eff off. i'm not going to like you, so don't even bother. i hate cheaters, too, and those people that have one personality around you and one away from you."
just prove there's nothing left to try.
I'D RATHER WE'D JUST WALK TONIGHT.
I'D RATHER WE'D JUST WALK TONIGHT.
"my last boyfriend was lorcan scamander, and we dated for just a couple months. but he'd been my best friend for so long...and we broke up towards the end of last year, but i still don't think i'm over it. so i may have a crush on you or something, but i won't act on it because i'm not done being hurt. but if you help me get over it [which she'll need. or make lorcan] you may be the first person i consider..."
son't surrender, surrender, surrender.
PLEASE REMEMBER, REMEBER DECEMBER.
PLEASE REMEMBER, REMEBER DECEMBER.
credit goes to COREY'S eyes } of CAUTION 2.0. do not steal unless you want to die, mkay?
-you've been hug tackled by MJ-